Done with my decision.

I really should start blogging often. January is coming to an end in 5 days time and my blog posts been weekly. Until today that is.

I wanna be free from all these emotional entanglement. This kind of things are a total nuisance because it hampers me from thinking properly. It is totally driving me crazy. And not in the crazy-good-way. I was watching this show on teevee and the person was saying "to not let your emotions take control because it will only stop you from doing things."

I can't remember the exact words but it went something like that. I should probably let go and stop hoping and harping but instead, i pushed the brewing troubles to the farthest corner of the atlantic ocean and carry on living my life as per normal.

To me, it's like a good thing because i will only cross the bridge when i reach it but to some, i'm in denial. I talked to people about it and they advised me to let go so that i won't be suffering and when the time comes, it won't be so damn hard for me. But i decided to go my own way and only cross the bridge when i reach it. I know, it may lead to my own downfall but at least i can chuck it into my "My Life's Experiences Folder."

I'm suffering now but no matter what, i will always remain as the positive person that i am. Not letting any problems bowl me over and knock me down.

Till the next time i get so worked up again that is. (=