Hope

"Why do you wanna fit in so hard when you're born to stand out?"

Never thought that the starting month of the year would not be a happy thing. I think many of us gave up hope when we failed to achieve something good in school. Furthermore with some extension of time, the bunch of us really don't look forward for anything anymore.

One by one we see our fellow mates drop out, thus making us feel so unmotivated. Letting us feel so alone. Making it feel as there is no hope anymore. Yes, you can say try, try, try harder but you're not in our shoes, so you don't understand what we're going through. What it feels like lagging behind. It's because we are going through this that is why we know that time is not on our side and we are not allowed to even enjoy a teeny bit.

It's not easy understanding theorems. It's never about memorising or drawing or learning new technology but it's more of using the power of your mind to solve things. To think out of the box, to think of ways to solve a problem. To crack our brains for the simplest solutions.

Now it's no longer about being in the top, but more of to sink, or to swim.