Don't provoke me. Im still depressed.

Third day of my being diagnosed of depression.



I found the effects of the anti-depressant calming. It voids me of all emotions except for happiness. If i weren't fasting, i'll probably down twice the dose to keep emotion-free the whole day.



I think its acting up again. I can't seem to breathe. Chest kinda feel tight. I seriously want to rid myself of this "illness". It's freaking me out.



Ouh yea..daddy sent me a reggae song by the Gentlemen. Oh man! The song just made me weep. Wanted to put it up at my blog but find that 311-Love songs ( another song given by him )are better.



Another thing is, i keep having the urge to go to the beach to see the moon and the stars with daddy because daddy keep me calm.



Note to self: I must stop getting angry to avoid being paranoid and to avoid another attack.



Im depressed if left alone, but more depressed if left at home. I thought that you were gona solve my problems today but looks like you ain't here to stay.