Depression

Today was a busy, busy day. Talked non-stop in chinese to those senior citizens who wanted to apply for the PTV. Quite a lot of things made me lose patience and hence being frustrated.

Was supposed to meet Vidya for dinner today but she couldn't make it as she had something on.
So called Rasyid up to break fast with him. As it was already near the breaking fast time, Banquet was full. I was initially feeling very frustrated because there was something wrong with my hp and trust me, being me, its kinda hard of me to let go when i feel angry. Oh and btw, we saw Amirul there. (=


I was forced to analyse my own feelings when i realised that most "problems" were created by me. As in my paranoia and disability to release my anger appropriately. Tu la..dulu Mr Bruce and Mdm Farah referred me for Anger Management, but being me, i decided to opt out of it. Now i regret it big time.


Im really feeling stressed out that im having depression. You can say that im depressed with having depression. I really want to cure myself of this "phase". Really. It's hurting real bad. I went to that doctor yesterday to check for asthma, but came back with depression. And it sucks.
Hmm..at least i know what my problem was. From now on, im gonna stop being paranoid and assuming.



Second day of my being diagnosed of depression.

Would you be there in times of my need?