I woke up today with the thought "i HAVE a boyfriend??! Since when??" And that is NOT good.
I was like "*insert boyfriend name* who??" Anyway, it can be funny if you have the right sense of humour.

Okay, so, have you ever had the feeling that you have let something good, really, really good slip out of your life just like that?

I just realised that i have let slipped something that can be atoned for my sins. Because believe me, i have done manyx100 sinful things and i desperately need to clear the sins within these 2 coming years as i want to perform the Haj or Umrah. ( Should be the Umrah since mother said the Haj cost a bomb. )

Wanted to perform the Umrah again this coming Ramadhan but i realise i cannot go for i have not clear all the sins that is within me.

On the other note,

I wonder why these local bands like to play punkish songs. Emo songs. Like what's the attraction man? NP OpenHouse, the invited bands played all these fucking lame genres. It's supposed to be hyped where people are supposed jump around and enjoy the music but i swear ALL the invited bands played moody songs.

WTF.

I wouldn't mind if they play metal. ( "I am Devil, I love metal. ") Atleast we can headbang to it.

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Mother, i know you want what's best for me but i refuse to listen if you continue being harsh to me. No matter what, im still a teen. Nine-teen.

Someone mentioned that i'll be entering my 20's next year. I'm lost for words.

And i so need to stop smoking! Somebody help me please. And it doesn't help that i smoke Red.