Long , long ago

Its been a long time since i last blog here
Kinda miss this ol' place
I've been through a lot these past few months
Got into trouble with the school,
My friends
But i think i also grown up
I managed to come to terms with who i am
Im still learning to cope with my anger
My emotions
I juz want to hide it all
I want to build a wall around me that's so thick that no one can ever penetrate
I want to live my life my own way
My life, my world, my rules
I had to deal with a lot of confusion, misunderstanding and feelings
I don't know how to react
I juz go with the flow
Im very confused about somebody
It's like he's trying to break me (he's juz a friend)
He wants to penetrate this thin wall that is holding me together
Why can't he let me be?
Why can't they all?
Why?